I HATE TODAY
I want to punch today in the dick.
Who knows how long I’ve loved you
You know I love you still
Will I wait a lonely lifetime
If you want me to, I will.
For if I ever saw you
I didn’t catch your name
But it never really mattered
I will always feel the same.
Love you forever and forever
Love you with all my heart
Love you whenever we’re together
Love you when we’re apart.
And when at last I find you
Your song will fill the air
Sing it loud so I can hear you
Make it easy to be near you
For the things you do endear you to me
Oh, you know, I will
I will.
Almost a year ago I took this job and moved away from anything and everything I’ve known. When I left I felt as if I was the mature man my father is. What I’ve come to realize is that the maturation never came, and I was up here being my same old retarded self. Once I realized this (late oct), I’ve been doing everything I can to be a better person but for some reason I still feel like a failure. I wish I could be strong, less tempered, better with money, less emotional, more giving/less selfish. I dunno, just felt like I had to write that. I know I still have a long way to go.
Who is reading this?